Though I am certainly aware that "due dates" are only guesstimations but still it's nice to have a countdown! And a date to look forward to.
We've had an awfully hot day here today. 36 C. Which for me is way too hot. I haven't stepped outside once. Just keeping indoors and downstairs, watching a movie and keeping my massive ankles up. They're not so pretty today. Sam's been home today too, to get some projects done. We've made such huge progress ... the trim and moldings are measured, cut, painted and up in both the office and baby's room and it truly completes the room. We kept to the original look of this 100 year old house but with all gleaming and white it looks brand new. And it is, brand new. Now we can move in to those two rooms and I can feel a bit more organized in life and alot more prepared to welcome this baby anytime.
Sam's upstairs right now, putting together the dresser and the crib. Plus two tiny white chairs to join my childhood play table. And so the setting up begins. It's really, really happening now. I've been feeling much more emotional about everything lately as the reality of not only birthing this child but bringing him or her home is really starting to hit me. So much energy and thought has been geared towards this house, the buying and collecting and the not forgetting of all the baby things, finally deciding on both a girl's and boy's name, educating myself on natural childbirth, and thinking ahead to Christmas trips home and other events I need to plan for ... that I really have been in denial that we will be walking back into this house with a little person soon enough. And then what do I do? I keep getting stuck on that moment. Do all first time Mums feel this way? More than a little detached from the actual reality that's just peeking around the corner? I know I'll hear alot of "You'll do great." and "Everyone feels like that." or "Everything will be fine." and I know that's all true. But I'm still needing this time to process. To sit and think and let it all sink in. Motherhood. Parenting. Forever. Responsibility. Change. Sacrifice. Joy. Fear. Love.
{Just a sneak peek ... and no, the wee dress does not mean we know or think it's a girl!}
10 comments:
i can't believe you are only 35 days away! soon you will be holding your little one in your arms...and how exciting to bring your little bundle into your beautiful newly renovated home....with the sweetest nursery i am sure!
take care
When we brought R home, we put him down on the floor in the carseat and cleaned up the house. We didn't know what else to do;-) It took me a little while to become attached emotionally- something I didn't expect. Every mom is different, I guess. Good luck to you.
It's coming soon hey? Get lots of rest and enjoy these last 35 days. I guess I could say "Every mom feels that way", but it's true! I wake up every day wondering if I can figure out how to do the right thing for Caleb on this day. "One day at a time" is the best advice I can give you. Enjoy these days while you look forward to the ones to come.
Thanks for the sneak peak into the baby's room. =) We have a VERY similiar picture of Dan setting up our crib for Matathew. Fun!
For some reason, I thought you already knew you were having a boy. You guys are going the surprise route, huh?
i like the picture...wasn't on the entry the first comment i made...
the style of the crib and dresser is enjoyable! oh my goodness...this is getting exciting...getting babies room all ready and the clothes all folded!
K
Lovin' your blogs lately! They are filled with such ANTICIPATION!
YEEHAW!
AHHHH...I thought for sure that the little dress was a sign of things to come! I didn't find out with any of the kids and it was wonderful each time to find out who they were when they arrived! It'll be more than you can expect Cass, and I won't even say the cliche comments because you can't put the emotions into words! You and Sam are blessed to have this babe as God's gift to you!
Wow, Cass, your blog is absolutely amazing. I have now read through it all, it is absolutely wonderful. Definately gives me something to aspire to! I hope that you are doing okay with the time left in your pregnancy, I have a feeling you will keep yourself busy. In regards to your ankles, I have a cute comment that came from one of my former students. She called her ankles cancles because there was no defination to her ankle so it was her calve and ankle combined. I thought it was kind of cute. I hope the finishings on the office and nursery went well. It must be great to have a husband that can do those things. One day I will have to tell you about the shoe rack that Geoff put together, needless to say, I hope Geoff doesn't want to put our crib together if we have a baby!
I hope your processing on bringing baby home is going well. My feel of you is that you are 'the planner' and you are looking ahead, and that is the process. I wish you well in that and I will be praying for you and Sam.
I can't wait to see photos of the nursery (I can just imagine how darling it is going to be), the name you picked, and pics of the 'peanut.' (I call all infants peanuts - I have no real idea why). Wishing you well and I am faithful in reading your blog, I'm addicted!
Ha ha, I totally had near-panic attacks the entire week before Caleb was born (well, before I was induced). I was totally freaked out about what we'd do with the baby after the hospital! Let's just say, take all the help you can get - Jason always says that with my parents here, Caleb still outnumbered the four of us, ha ha. Love how the nursery's coming together!!
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